Birthday. Happy birthday

Birthday. Happy birthday.

Two words at once that I don’t understand.

I understand the actual day of arrival in the world as a birthday, but I don’t understand the birthday as an anniversary and all the customs associated with this day.

I don’t mark the date of my birthday as a special day in the calendar. What is a birthday when it’s not about the actual event of birth in this body on this planet ?

For me birthday is everyday.

Everyday my physical, mental and spiritual selves undergo some changes. It’s a happy day when I manage to register the moment of awakening, and to consciously choose what qualities I want to manifest, how I want to (re)create myself. One day at a time.

The calendar birthday I see as a reminder of the necessity to overview the tiny accumulated changes of the past 365 birthdays.

Birth and light have in my perception the same semantics. 365 timid flickers of light accumulated transform in the following HighLight:

The most empowering idea this year has revealed me: everyone is a hero on the hero journey. Better understanding of this classic concept https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hero%27s_journey of any story provided me with a different take on the challenges that I’m facing. Observations over the manifestations of this frame in different walks of life made me more resilient.

One of the most important keys to the locked doors that I found within last 365 steps: I have to learn to be comfortable with the feeling of frustration. Failing to support this feeling I deprive myself from the desired progress (in any learning process).

Clarified zone of proximal development: To learn to respect my thoughts and the way that I can express them in a given moment.

It was about my understanding of the meaning of "birthday".
It happens everyday and it’s sad if I don’t register a day as a day of a conscious creation of my life. The calendar birthday - just a reminder to save the accumulated light of the previous days turning it into HighLights.

As for my troubles with understanding of the word "happy" it’s another story.

Wishing everyone to recognise oneself as a hero on the hero’s journey and to go on making the steps in alignment with the intention of the journey.

I’m grateful to my parents, to my mother for giving me this life and for doing their best to help me to grow up in this complex world.

I’m deeply thankful to my husband for his continuous encouragement to learn to be authentic, creative and to do everything I need to feel alive. Regardless.